I see God in everyone, it scares me greatly, what should I do?

Shri Hit Radha Keli Kunj, Vrindavan. A private conversation with revered Shri Hit Premanand Govind Sharan Ji Maharaj. Sadhaks put forward questions about their life and sadhana, and Maharaj Ji resolves them.

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Radhe Radhe Maharaj Ji, millions upon millions of prostrate salutations at your feet. Lord, I want to know: I see the form of God in everyone. I see God in you too. I see that same one everywhere, even in an ant. When God is visible, then what question remains? Vasudeva is visible in everything.

बहु नाम जन्म नावते ज्ञानवान माम प्रपद्यते वासुदेवा महात्मा सुदुर्लभा
After many births, the wise soul surrenders to Me, knowing Vasudeva is all—such a great soul is very rare.

वो महात्मा सुदुर्लभ जो सर्वत्र भगवान का दर्शन जब भगवान का दर्शन जिसके जान लेने के बाद कुछ जानना बाकी है।
That rare great soul who beholds God everywhere—when one has that vision of God, is there anything left to know?

Then how do you still have a question? Now it has increased so much that I become troubled. I become afraid. Oh, you are troubled in seeing Sat-Chit-Ananda, the Lord! Here you are troubled in the seeing. This is ignorance, this is what happens with a child. Without the grace of a guru, without treading the true path, this state comes a little.

Now your intellect—there was a king named Pandak. In the Bhagavata, read that story. Some four companions, friends from Kashi and such, taught him: "You are an avatar. You are Vasudeva, God himself." So he got wooden arms attached and had a Sudarshan Chakra made like that, and he stayed in that delusion, and sent word to God saying, "You are not the real God." God cut him with the Sudarshan. So some such confusion arises in the intellect.

Child, when the vision of God begins to happen to you, certain signs appear in it. What signs appear?

निर्माण अमोहा जित संग दोष अध्यात्म नित्या विनिवत्त कामा द्वंद विमुक्त सुख दुख संगै गच्छंत मूढ़ा पदम्यम
Free from delusion, undeceived, conqueror of attachment and flaws, established in the divine truth, free from desire and lust, beyond duality, unaffected by pleasure and pain.

But in your case it is completely the opposite. You are saying "I become troubled." You are absolutely not in awareness—you will reach into depression. What we are saying is not wrong; your thinking is wrong. One who has the vision of God becomes thrilled, absorbed in supreme bliss.

गदगद सुर नैना सजल जिधर देखता है अपना जित देखो तित श्याम खड़े कितना आनंद का विषय हा जाको मनमोहन मन दृष्टि परे सोतो भयो सावन को आंधरो सूझ रंग हरे ही हरे जड़ चैतन्य कछु नहीं देखत जित देखत तित श्याम खड़े बिहल विकल संभार न तन की घूमत नैना रूप भरे करनी अकरनी दो विधि भूले विधि निषेध सब रहे धरे नर हरिदास ते भय बावरे जे यह प्रेम प्रवाह
With choked voice and tearful eyes of the gods, wherever one looks, there Shyam stands—what a subject of joy! For one whose mind is captivated by Krishna, when the gaze falls upon Him, one becomes as the blind man in the rains who only sees green—green everywhere. The insentient and conscious become one, seeing nothing but Shyam everywhere, their being bewildered and disturbed, unable to care for their body, eyes wandering full of His form. Forgetting what to do and what not to do, forgetting commands and prohibitions, all becomes established—O human, says Haridasas, be not afraid of this flood of love.

This is the ultimate limit of supreme bliss.

The disciple says, "It is very difficult, very troublesome. How are these words coming? How is the question arising?"

It is still wrong, child. Do nama jap. From meditating with the feeling of God in samadhi, the feeling of supreme bliss comes. What is the problem? What problem is there? Listen, we are telling you: if you proceed in the right way, then real realization of God happens. This is the realization of God.

When God realization happens, no thought remains, no worry remains. One unbroken bliss awakens. We just told you:

ब्रह्म भूता प्रसन्न आत्मा न सोचति न का
One established in Brahman, with a joyful self, does not think, does not desire.

Every moment one wondrous bliss. One wondrous—what problem arises, child? What problem comes? Fear comes, Maharaj Ji.

Now fear comes. Hey, one who has beheld the state of fearlessness—this is all twisted understanding. Hear this correctly. From surrender alone comes fearlessness, lack of hesitation, freedom from worry, abandonment of contrary feelings, destruction of doubts. These five things happen immediately upon surrender. Even death becomes a great celebration for one who takes refuge in God. One who sees God everywhere sees God even in death. Among all those who take, I am death—but he sees his beloved Shri Krishna, Krishna even in death.

Exactly for this reason: without a guru there is no knowledge. If we do not take refuge at the feet of true gurus following the right path, egoistic knowledge does not come. Fear in God realization? Fear—oh, fear belongs to worldly pleasures. There, there is the state of fearlessness, the abode of fearlessness. Let all worries sleep. Do nama jap, study the scriptures, and keep listening to satsang.

Gradually, then, maturity will come. Although you are fortunate—first we are correcting your tendency, rebuking you, although you are fortunate—any excuse to connect the mind to God, in this state, in young age, this is great grace. Because from this you will be saved from wrong conduct and good inclinations will form, but proceed correctly. This fearlessness, this lack of hesitation, this freedom from worry, awakens from surrender to God.

You are afraid. You still have contrary feelings. Your doubt shows your surrender has not happened. Look, in a medical store all medicines are kept. If you take them without a doctor, you will get into trouble. Scripture is our medical store and the true guru is the physician. Whatever medicine the sant prescribes, take it from the medical store and it will work for you. That principle of scripture will only awaken within us when we connect our mind to a sant, a true sant of the path to God. Then by their grace and kindness, every step becomes full of bliss.

How should I speak of fear? When I left home at thirteen years old, by God's support until now I have reached this state. I have had no acquaintance with the word fear. I have had no acquaintance with it. Wherever there was even the slightest possibility, we saw it there. You have seen God's glory. What fear is there, child? Fear itself is God. When God is everywhere, fear too is God—so how can there be fear from God? How can there be fear from your own God? Absolutely no fear.

Another listener: Maharaj Ji is saying that I have developed such love for the name Radha that I see Radha Rani in everything.

But after this I will obtain bhagavat attainment. These children, these children are like this. Now how - how - all children, this one is also a child, that one is also a child. Radha and Ram - such affection happened so quickly. If I show Radha Rani in everyone, then should you seek bhagavat attainment, Maharaj Ji? If you - if Radha Rani is not in you, then who seeks bhagavat attainment now? Radha Rani is seen in everyone but bhagavat attainment is not there, Maharaj Ji.

It will happen. You remain in doubt. Yes, see, even now - as I have encouraged this one, so I tell you - you are going very rightly. Have the sentiment of Radha Rani in everyone, do naam jap. If Radha Rani is seen even once - now you are - one of our Shri - you know how beautiful she is.

The Lord of infinite universes, the enchanter of the minds of sages, flowers, and worlds - in one glance of her, they have surrendered themselves. See, Mother! The boundary of beauty and splendor! When the infinite Lord of the cosmos stands before her with folded hands, then like this - Radha Rani - the vision of Shri Ji -

ब्रह्मेश्वर सुदू पदारविंद श्रीमत पराग परमा वैभवाया सर्वार्थ सार रस कृपा दृष्ट प्यारो क्षमते सुकादम ध्यानगम

The Supreme Lord at whose feet in the sacred pollen, supreme in splendor, the essence and nectar of all purposes and divine grace - whom the wise can contemplate.

Listen, do naam jap, naam jap! Be silent, remain hidden. Everything will be alright. Do naam jap, jap the name. Like this, I see Shri Ji in everything - absolutely not! Don't say such things now, don't say such things now. We are telling you this - otherwise the path of bhakti will be obstructed, will be obstructed. You will become confused. Don't mistake brass for gold anywhere. Whatever is before Hari, that brass will remain brass. Gold remains gold. Bhagavat attainment or bhagavat darshan - there are stages to these. Is it such a simple thing that like this bhagavat darshan happens? One speaks with a dry mouth, "I have received Shri Ji." The stage, the stage - before the darshan of Shri Ji, your stage will change.

Your stage will change. First do plenty of naam jap. Serve your husband. Maintain the sentiment of bhagavat in your family. If anyone speaks harsh words to you, if anyone insults you, let it not cause you suffering. Gradually move forward. Then Shri Ji will show mercy. Direct vision will be attained. Now Shri Ji appears visible. Bhagavat attainment still remains due. These are all the questions that children ask. Come on, do bhajan. Yes.

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